from the mind of prancingpanda :: 07:46 AM :: December 2nd, 2005
Entries for December, 2005
nasaan si kaliwete? where is da love?
its "opening night" day. hindi na ako pumasok sa fil class ko since kelangang magdikit ng posters sa ateneo hs. kaya, kinuha ko si aulvin (haha! kuha.) at naglakbay kami papuntang hayskul... daming boys. hahaaha! duh. :D
pagkabalik ng rmt (rizal mini-theater) niyaya ako ni ic na pumuntang kagubatan... may part pala kase sa ateneo na makikita mo na ang marikina, ang sta lucia at ang antipolo bundoks.ü kaya un, halos trekking na ang ginawa namin. after 15 minutes of walking, ayun, nakarating naman din kami dun ng safe. haha! :D
hindi pa sumisipot ang aming house head... at ang dumi dumi na ng buong theater. fucker. kaya un, nagskoba ang iba habang ako nama'y nagwalis ng semento. sa sobrang dumi ng winawalis ko, kinakailangang basain ito habang winawalis... eh namamaho ung slippers ko pag nababasa kaya, oh well, kelangang magpaa. eeew. its like so kadire na nakakapuke. haha! :D but twas ok. masaya naman eh. :D germs! haha!
then came 5pm. everyone was busy putting on make up. ako? nagpapalagay ng toothpaste sa buhok. ahahhah! 50+ na kase ako for my role eh so i had to look older. eh un... ok palang pa-effect ang toothpaste. so, there.. even though i had my make-up done and ran all the blocks ang lines through my head, i still wasn't ready. hindi pa. i still can't believe that we were only a few minutes away from opening the production. ang weird kase ang gulo sa RR (where we fix ourselves and stuff. hindi siya ung backstage).. everyone was in a frenzy. pero, for a brief moment, parang wala akong marinig. seriously. parang ang tahimik. all i saw were people mouthing words, silent conversations. ang labo pero i loved that feeling. so calm.. very encouraging.
i was forced to snap back to reality when i went backstage. shet. murmurs. there are actual people behind the curtains. people that will watch our every move and await our next mistake. doon na pumasok ang kaba. ang frustrations, doubts, lahat, biglang naghari sa loob ko. but then, i looked around... i saw iwel rehearsing his lines and kenn sitting at one corner, internalizing.. i realized that they probably feel the same way as i do. baka naman hindi, baka naman mas malala pa. who knows? pero here are just two of the countless people who helped me through the nasaansikaliwete experience. ika nga ng eheads.. nakakaaliw. nakakatindig balahibo.
while performing, i saw ramdom faces in the audience. may mga nanuod na kasama ko sa english class, sa chem, at siyempre sa japan. VICKA was there! whoaaaa. ang saya kase i really miss her company and seeing her there gave me more confidence. alien came. siya lang ang guest ko. ang saya dahil gumawa talaga siya ng effort para makapunta. nakarating lang siya sa intermission pero naabutan pa rin naman niya ang scene ko. to you, a million thanks. sobrang salamat.
nagkaroon din ako ng mga mali. ngunit, sinabi ko sa sarili ko na babawiin ko un sa mga susunod ko pang linya. after the whole play, i felt good about myself. i felt great for my friends. nakaya namin. nagsaluhan kami, nagbigayan ng suporta. sa tuwing nasa likod kami ng kurtina, kami'y nagaakapan, nagkakamayan, nagsasabihan ng "kaya mo yan" at "wag kang mag-alala"... tsaka kami sabay sabay na hihinga ng malalim bago ihakbang ang aming mga paa tungo sa entablado. masaya ang ganun. ang alam mong may mga taong handa para saluhin ka... para bigyan ka ng encouragement.. para pagsabihan ka sa mga magkakamali.
bliss.
masarap makatanggap ng palakpak.
nakakataba ng puso ang mga ngiting namasdan.
nakakawala ng pagod.
nakakapuksa ng kadramahan sa katawan.
...and that was just the first show...
pagkabalik ng rmt (rizal mini-theater) niyaya ako ni ic na pumuntang kagubatan... may part pala kase sa ateneo na makikita mo na ang marikina, ang sta lucia at ang antipolo bundoks.ü kaya un, halos trekking na ang ginawa namin. after 15 minutes of walking, ayun, nakarating naman din kami dun ng safe. haha! :D
hindi pa sumisipot ang aming house head... at ang dumi dumi na ng buong theater. fucker. kaya un, nagskoba ang iba habang ako nama'y nagwalis ng semento. sa sobrang dumi ng winawalis ko, kinakailangang basain ito habang winawalis... eh namamaho ung slippers ko pag nababasa kaya, oh well, kelangang magpaa. eeew. its like so kadire na nakakapuke. haha! :D but twas ok. masaya naman eh. :D germs! haha!
then came 5pm. everyone was busy putting on make up. ako? nagpapalagay ng toothpaste sa buhok. ahahhah! 50+ na kase ako for my role eh so i had to look older. eh un... ok palang pa-effect ang toothpaste. so, there.. even though i had my make-up done and ran all the blocks ang lines through my head, i still wasn't ready. hindi pa. i still can't believe that we were only a few minutes away from opening the production. ang weird kase ang gulo sa RR (where we fix ourselves and stuff. hindi siya ung backstage).. everyone was in a frenzy. pero, for a brief moment, parang wala akong marinig. seriously. parang ang tahimik. all i saw were people mouthing words, silent conversations. ang labo pero i loved that feeling. so calm.. very encouraging.
i was forced to snap back to reality when i went backstage. shet. murmurs. there are actual people behind the curtains. people that will watch our every move and await our next mistake. doon na pumasok ang kaba. ang frustrations, doubts, lahat, biglang naghari sa loob ko. but then, i looked around... i saw iwel rehearsing his lines and kenn sitting at one corner, internalizing.. i realized that they probably feel the same way as i do. baka naman hindi, baka naman mas malala pa. who knows? pero here are just two of the countless people who helped me through the nasaansikaliwete experience. ika nga ng eheads.. nakakaaliw. nakakatindig balahibo.
while performing, i saw ramdom faces in the audience. may mga nanuod na kasama ko sa english class, sa chem, at siyempre sa japan. VICKA was there! whoaaaa. ang saya kase i really miss her company and seeing her there gave me more confidence. alien came. siya lang ang guest ko. ang saya dahil gumawa talaga siya ng effort para makapunta. nakarating lang siya sa intermission pero naabutan pa rin naman niya ang scene ko. to you, a million thanks. sobrang salamat.
nagkaroon din ako ng mga mali. ngunit, sinabi ko sa sarili ko na babawiin ko un sa mga susunod ko pang linya. after the whole play, i felt good about myself. i felt great for my friends. nakaya namin. nagsaluhan kami, nagbigayan ng suporta. sa tuwing nasa likod kami ng kurtina, kami'y nagaakapan, nagkakamayan, nagsasabihan ng "kaya mo yan" at "wag kang mag-alala"... tsaka kami sabay sabay na hihinga ng malalim bago ihakbang ang aming mga paa tungo sa entablado. masaya ang ganun. ang alam mong may mga taong handa para saluhin ka... para bigyan ka ng encouragement.. para pagsabihan ka sa mga magkakamali.
bliss.
masarap makatanggap ng palakpak.
nakakataba ng puso ang mga ngiting namasdan.
nakakawala ng pagod.
nakakapuksa ng kadramahan sa katawan.
...and that was just the first show...
we've been quiet for such a long time.
feeling ko, kung nahiwalay lang ako sa sarili ko at nakilala ko si Tina, as in makausap ng harap-harapan, ten minutes pa lang, matuturn-off na ako.
napanuod na ako nina nanay, belle, kiki, pakes, abery, gino ni pakes, baby ni abery, aids at ng block.
Abs gave me flowers... shet... funny as it may sound, yun ang unang beses na nakatanggap ako ng bulaklak... from a foreign person, i mean. foreign being not from my family. haha.ü ang ganda sa pakiramdam. haha! ang igno. :D
at yes, natuto na akong maglagay ng make-up.
**
could it be?
tae. tae ka. tae ang puso.
is it time to give up?
im just too tired of the struggle.. but not of the feeling.
**
it has been one hell of a week. ang gulo. masayang malungkot. sa umaga, id be jumping and laughing my heart out. habang sa gabi, nangingilid na ang luha sa mga mata ko. anlabo. hindi na tuloy alam ng katawan ko kung aling emosyon ang unang bibigyan ng response. result? not-your-ordinary-sabaw tina. beware...
napanuod na ako nina nanay, belle, kiki, pakes, abery, gino ni pakes, baby ni abery, aids at ng block.
Abs gave me flowers... shet... funny as it may sound, yun ang unang beses na nakatanggap ako ng bulaklak... from a foreign person, i mean. foreign being not from my family. haha.ü ang ganda sa pakiramdam. haha! ang igno. :D
at yes, natuto na akong maglagay ng make-up.
**
could it be?
tae. tae ka. tae ang puso.
is it time to give up?
im just too tired of the struggle.. but not of the feeling.
**
it has been one hell of a week. ang gulo. masayang malungkot. sa umaga, id be jumping and laughing my heart out. habang sa gabi, nangingilid na ang luha sa mga mata ko. anlabo. hindi na tuloy alam ng katawan ko kung aling emosyon ang unang bibigyan ng response. result? not-your-ordinary-sabaw tina. beware...
lovely.
so surreal.
last show na namin... noong nagbbow na kaming lahat, pinanuod kong makatanggap ng bouquet ng flowers ung mga kasama ko.. i remember feeling a little jealous since i know that my arms would be empty that night. my face was painted with a desperate smile. haha! naaawa na tuloy ako sa sarili ko.. :D then, when it was my turn to take a bow, our technical director, with a huuuuge bouquet of red roses in his arms, approached the stage.. and surprisingly, he was walking towards me...
my world stopped.
seryoso...
i got the roses and hugged them... minahal ko na sila doon pa lang.
secretly, my heart was crying.
up until now, i have no idea who gave them to me.
dense? hmm... i already thought of someone, but then.. i dunno..
whoever you are, a million thanks to you. hindi ito pagiging oa. i really loved them. its not everyday that i feel special and appreciated. usually, i just force myself to like .. myself. hehe. basta. thank you. and just to let you know, i greet them right after waking up in the morning.
good morning beautiful.
last show na namin... noong nagbbow na kaming lahat, pinanuod kong makatanggap ng bouquet ng flowers ung mga kasama ko.. i remember feeling a little jealous since i know that my arms would be empty that night. my face was painted with a desperate smile. haha! naaawa na tuloy ako sa sarili ko.. :D then, when it was my turn to take a bow, our technical director, with a huuuuge bouquet of red roses in his arms, approached the stage.. and surprisingly, he was walking towards me...
my world stopped.
seryoso...
i got the roses and hugged them... minahal ko na sila doon pa lang.
secretly, my heart was crying.
up until now, i have no idea who gave them to me.
dense? hmm... i already thought of someone, but then.. i dunno..
whoever you are, a million thanks to you. hindi ito pagiging oa. i really loved them. its not everyday that i feel special and appreciated. usually, i just force myself to like .. myself. hehe. basta. thank you. and just to let you know, i greet them right after waking up in the morning.
good morning beautiful.
old's new
its highschool once again! our block celebrated christmas with faded highschool uniforms, sibol carols, magic sing, a pot luck dinner and well, alcohol. we wore our old school uniforms and teased each other for how cheesy we looked. hahaha! shempre, assumption gurlz rulez. hahahahahaha! :D ang gulo!! there were students from ateneo high, st paul, miriam, lourdes and la salle. haha! ang kulet. :D grand soiree. i havent been to one though.. :D super saya ng block koooo. next party theme: UN day. :D i really miss my barkada because of them.. hmm.. <img src="http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a292/2tina_fah/Block%20D1/s.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com">
wish wish
- mababaw na kaligayahan
ang unang baboy sa langit na libro
-braces graduation
-a pretty jacket
-nice slippers
-brown and pink wallet from humor post
-digital camera (broke ours kase haha)
-steadler fineliner..lahat ng kulay half
of it pero super oks lang. ♥
-Hershey's dark chocolate bar
-mag ice skating sa megamall
-help, in any way, african childrenjoin ONE!
-be kissed by 4,000,000 children ...still counting..�¼
-join a theater org .. TA!! ♥
Please do visit
you need not have money.. just the willingness to help and make a change. baw.
im still missing
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