Entries for December, 2004

kim: tina! tina! lika sandali.. may itatanong lang ako...
tina: o? ano?
kim: ok lang ba sayong mag-emcee?
tina: *panic* saan!? saan muna? saan muna?
kim: *weird look
tina: ummm... birthday mooo?!
kim: oo!!! hahaha! sa dec. 18 pa naman eh.. sa tapika
tina: *PANIC* [thoughts of my family flashed before me.. kung papayagan ba ako o hindi.. kung pano ko sasabihin kay kim kung hindi.. everything was going so faaaast..] Ano?! CAVITE?!!?

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may bangs na ako ngayon.
baaaaangs...

kumain ako ng isang buong melon kagabi. walang condensed milk kaya't powdered na gatas at asukal na lang ang nilagay ko.

ako ang nagsindi ng kandila sa advent wreath the school habang General Assembly kanina.

ganda ako.
pwe.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 06:12 PM :: December 1st, 2004

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"There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you want to pick them from your dreams and hug them. Dream what you want to dream; Go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. Always put your self in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts, it probably hurts the other person too. The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with with a snile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches."

courtesy of notnot.
*heartsmiles.

halika'ttumakbotayosakawalan

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 09:47 AM :: December 2nd, 2004

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things i do for projects

Meron kaming Franco Fest sa school. We'd have to gather as many trivias or facts or pictures as we can.. basta anything about France. ako? costume pinili ko. at lumabo na naman ang utak ko kaya't ganito ang kinalabasan.

FRENCH BOY and FRENCH GIRL
*of early times..



hindi na to tama...

note to self: hindi sa akin bagay ang floral print.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 03:21 PM :: December 2nd, 2004

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patay.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 07:53 PM :: December 4th, 2004

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im tired.
tired of thinking.
..of keeping myself alive.
..of seeing myself fall face first on the floor.

im tired.

..

...

need rest.

cant wait till tonight to wake my senses up.

dead.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 08:10 PM :: December 4th, 2004

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burning sensation

cant talk too much..
cant eat that well..
cant sleep..
always have that "mapungay" na mata..

hindi dahil sa inlab ako..
ngunit dahil feeling ko'y ako'y may sakit. pero wala naman.
feeling lang.

namamaga ang kalahati ng mukha ko.
kadire. mukha na akong dalandan. kulang na lang dahon.

*conversation*

teacher joy: balita ko na-move ung communion ng gr2 sa inyo ah..
tina: yef.. pano mo nalaman?
teacher joy: sa balita.. sa radyo. socy niyo naman.
tina: o nga eh. haha! alam niyo ba, dapat kami ung magseserve dun? as in sacristan! sacristan ako sa school eh. ako ung presidente nung club ng mga sacristan dun!
teacher joy: *look of disbelief* BLASPHEMY!!!!

haha! bastos.

ispank.

ispank.

bat ba ang tingin ng tao sa mga nagsisilbi sa misa ay pangkalahatang banal? ako, hindi ako banal. at hindi ako nagsasakristan upang takpan mga kasalanan ko. masarap magserve. seryoso. lalo na pag communion ng grade two. dati nga, pareho ung gala uniform ng grade two sa gala namin... nung pagbaba ko ng kotse, ang sagwa ng tingin sa akin ng mga magulang.. tas may nagtanong sakin..

hija, what section are you from? where will all your classmates line-up?

sige. gawin mo akong grade two.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 07:12 PM :: December 6th, 2004

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you leave nothing but broken hearts

dang. just had a petty fight with her. tae. baket? phone. ang dakilang teleponong busy 24/7. come to think of it, we fight almost about everything. mostly because of her, being in a bad mood and stuff and me, being a wanna-be ate.

wanna-be ate. yes. wanna-be ate. for us, ate is just a term. one lousy term. nakasanayan nang itawag sa akin un eh. kaya ganon. parang colgate sa lahat ng toothpaste at pampers sa lahat ng diapers. its not that she doesnt have any respect for me. hindi ganon. ironically, hindi masama loob ko.. hindi na. lagpas na ako sa stage na un eh.

minsan lang, bumabalik ang kadramahan sa buhay. minsan, hindi mapipigilang mapatigil upang isipin kung bat ganon nga ba ung buhay namin ni isabelle.

whenever we fight, she'd always pretend she's really tough. as for me, id look as if im a lot tougher than what she's trying to be. haha.. its as if we're five year-olds again. but after all is said and done, i sulk at one corner and cry my head off while she'd be doing the same thing while talking to her friends about every dirty detail. tough noh?

pero sa totoo lang, masaya ako't siya nakakatabi ko sa pagtulog at pagkain. masaya ako sa kanya. she makes me ....
complete..
she makes me completely miserable....
**eeks! joke.

binabalanse niya buhay ko. nakikita niya ang mga problema, paparating pa lang. iniisip niya muna ang gagawin. loyal siya kina nanay. worthy maging kaaway dahil masungit. alam kung pano magsungit. logical mag-isip. marunong magpaiyak at magpatahan.

everything im not..

plus, mahal na mahal pa niya lahat ng tao sa paligid niya. you'd feel this the moment she'd laugh with you.

mahirap makaaway pero masarap magmahal.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 01:10 AM :: December 9th, 2004

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buryok

ive been absent for two days already. why? beke mumps. haha! :D contagious daw kase.. contagious ako... raar! kaya sa ngayon, purple ung plato ko habang sa mga kapamilya ko'y puti. sa baba na ako natutulog ngayon (normally sa tabi ni belle pero ngayon, mag-isa na lang ako.) at sa tuwing kakausapin ko si belle, tinatakpan niya ang bibig niya o di kaya'y tinutulak niya ako palayo (literal tulak). pinapalagyan ako ng tatay ko ng bandana sa leeg... ala cowboy. para daw hindi makahawa..

wala na akong magawa at alas-otso pa lang ng umaga.

dahil don, gumawa ako ng art. art kuno.











(hindi rin halatang wala akong magawa)

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 08:19 AM :: December 10th, 2004

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bahay bahayan kasal kasalan

kaso ung pinuntahan ko, totohanan. :D
ayun. abay ako sa kasal. ako ung taga sindi ng kandila. pagbukas ko nung matchbox, tae! limang posporo ung nakaskatch-tape. as in isang bundle. para daw long lasting.

we were then asked to form our lines.. the wedding will start in a few seconds na daw. so, ayos ayos ng hair at praktis sa pagismayl. kinalabit ko ung partner ko.. ngumiti siya at sinabi ko ang pangalan ko. ayan, semi-friends na kami. :D biglang tumugtog ung piano! canon in D! so ako naman... aaawwww..... (as in sinabi ko talaga ng malakas) tumawa ang bastos na partner. tae. how dare you laugh at a lady wearing lilac?!

sa reception, ako ung pinabigay ng souvenirs. so, i was walking around, carrying a basket with white plastic doves in it... as i was going from table to table, i was asking eash person "souvenir?" "sir, souvenir?" "hello po, souvenir?" sumagot pinsan ko... "pa-refill ng iced tea."

tae.

lumabas ako ng reception area dahil andun ung ibang tao. so namigay ako ng soubenir. at pagdating ko sa isang table, lahat ng tao (girlz an boyz, teenagers pa) nagtinginan at nagsingitian. tinanong ako nung isang guy kung anung name ko.. eh ako, si dakilang bingi, hindi ko narinig at sabi ko.. "souvenir?" nagtawanan sila at kinorrect ko na lang after. tinanung ung number ko kaso umalis na lang ako't binentahan binigyan ng souvenir ung isang table.

belle and tina




tina with her magic bridal car

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 11:53 PM :: December 11th, 2004

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sniff.

tae. my head hurts like hell. tas kapitbahay pa namin ay isang construction site. buong araw silang nagpuputol ng bato. so, everyminute, may high pitched noice na maririnig sa buong bahay namin. isang. malaking. tae.

hindi pa rin nahuhupa ang chipongs ko.

why do we havta be sick every once in a while? is it your body telling you na "hija, frail ka na dahil sa madami ka nang inaatupag"? o "hija, dahil sa pagnanakaw mo ng mountain dew kagabi, eto ang sayo: *virus*" baka naman "..eto o.. *virus* dahil cute ka."

feeling ko ung pangatlo.

captain vegetable, help meee!!! *cue: seasame street's captain vegetable theme song*

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 09:26 AM :: December 14th, 2004

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kung lahat ng tao may wish list, ako, eto lang

Ang Unang Baboy Sa Langit (The First Pig in Heaven)
by Rene, O. Villanueva, et al (Paperback)
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Butsiki is a strange pig, born with a star on her forehead. She is also the cleanest pig ever. She teaches other animals the need for cleanliness only to be betrayed by her own kind.

why can't i find you? can't see the star anymore.... i grew up with you, fearing the big big spider on the ceiling. now that i've grown, the memories of how you made my afternoon siestas enjoyable are coming back.
my smile was different then..

i want that smile to come back along with you.

*seryoso.
*cant even find a picture of the book in the net. dang.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 10:27 AM :: December 15th, 2004

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sinanay ko na ang sarili kong hindi umasa. hindi na ako naeexcite. ginawa ko sa sarili ko iyon para hindi masaktan.. mabigo sa huli. ayaw ko kaseng sabihin sa sarili ko na engot ako sa pagaakalang (situation) . Nang tumagal, nalabuan ako sa ganung set-up. Unti-unti akong natangahan sa sarili ko kung bakit ko inalis ang nagpapaaliw sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ng tao.. ang anticipation. kaya't binalik ko ito. umasa. naramdaman muli ang sayang naidudulot ng excitement.


tangina pala eh. wala rin naman palang kwenta. kung kelan bumalik, tsaka niyo babawiin. ngayon ko na nga lang naramdaman to ulit. ni hindi niyo pa pinalasap sakin.

naubos na. wala na.

masakit harapin ang isang bagay ng walang ganung pakiramdam. seryoso. para ka lang kaseng lantang kabute nun eh.

ginawa niyo akong lantang gulay. salamat.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 12:00 AM :: December 17th, 2004

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pangungulila


Well, I've been afraid of changing cause I've
Built my life around you
Time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older, too

kayo

hindi na kayo tumatawa sa kakornihan ko.. hanggang yakap nalang tayo at hiraman ng libro.. sana maghabulan ulit tayo sa escalator.






the stage is set
to rip the wings of a butterfly
dont forget to breathe

pagarte

hindi na ako nakakaamoy ng pintura't make-up. wala nang costume fitting. wala nang pagsasaulo ng linya. kailangang masinagan ulit ng satage light ang pagmumukha ko...





Moonchild still lives in my heart.
Can I ask you something?
Is your life better now?

sarili ko

hindi na kita naaalagaan. sinasabi ng salamin na frail ka na. frail child. tae. ayokong maging frail child ka. isang tulak lang sayo, (literal) tumba ka. akala nila, oa ka. pero totoong off balance un. kelangan mo na ng sustagen.
hindi ko na rin makita ang identity mo.





_______________________________ :D
repaint my orange sky
squeeze it out and i'll
keep it all together
hold it in forever

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 01:24 AM :: December 18th, 2004

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para kay giulianne.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v622/tina_fah/bloomfield.jpg

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 05:10 PM :: December 20th, 2004

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tingin sa itaas





Santa, gusto kong maniwala sayo ngayon. ngunit asan ka na?



*hapon pa lang, iniintay ko na ang pagdating niya.

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 10:26 AM :: December 21st, 2004

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you brought me back to where I began

Kim's party
was the emcee. aliw naman. :D magpapabayad na ako next time. jox. :D

as part of the program, i, together with some friends, sang several faves of the birthday girl.. tas ung effect pa, lahat kami, nakatalikod from the audience and one by one, haharap pag turn na kumanta.. eh di ako na.. sabi ko sa sarili ko..

"ayan na.. eto na.. magaling ako... (pampalakas ng loob..)"

...silence...

"i dont wanna wait in vain for your love...
i dont wanna wait in vain for your love..
coz summer is here, and im still waiting there..
coz summer is here and im still waiting there.. (with higher pitch)"


tas napatunganga ako... tas may sumigaw.

"Tin!! mali lyrics mo!"


singsing
was able to borrow not's rufio MCMLXXXV cd. yeaaaaahh!! :D
haha! hindi na niya masisinagan ang cd na ito.





jox. baka batukan pa niya ako eh. :D

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 07:13 PM :: December 22nd, 2004

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wala sa bahay ung itay ko nung 24. nasa golf course. nakikipagdate sa damo. he came home at around 7pm and he called me to help him with his "stuff".. at ayun.. nagbaba ng limang malalaking regalo. lima. eh tatlo lang kaming magkakapatid. so tatlo. tas ung nanay pa namin.. so, apat. kenino ung isa? may mga card na nakadikit sa gip ngunit walang nakalagay na pangalan kung para kenino. ngunit, mula sa trying-to-be-mysterious face ng tatay ko, alam kong galing sa kanya ang mga iyon.

nagsimba.

kumain.

nagpiktyuran.

at eto na... ang bukasan ng regalo.

naexcite kaming lahat. malaki kase ang mga nakabalot. ngunit hindi pa namin sinimulan dahil, as ive said, hindi pa namin alam kung alin ang amin. hanggang sa pumasok na ng bahay ang aking beloved itay at pinaabot ang isang regalo. kinapakapa ito. sabi niya..

"teka, kenino to?! ... tsk.. nakalimutan kong palagyan ng pangalan... alam ko na.. ako bahala..."

at ayun. binuksan niya. binuksan niya ang regalong para sana kay isabelle. aliw ng tatay ko. cute. :D nagbukas pa siya ng isa't sumigaw...

"eto!! akin to!!"

kaya pala lima ang mga nakabalot dahil kanya ang isa.
hahahahahahahhahahahahahaha!

alabyu tataaaay.

binigyan ako ni ranniell ng coconut cookies na nakabalot ng tsokolate habang bago nun, sinuntok ko siya sa braso.

napanuod ko ang africa episode ni oprah at ako'y naging desidido na sa pagiging isang guro.

binigyan ko si not ng tshirt. itim. small. tinahi at sinulatan ko para likhang tina. mukha daw siyang sexy sa shirt na un. aliw.


"then the grinch thought of something he hadn’t before
maybe christmas
he thought
doesnt come from a store
Maybe Christmas
perhaps
means a little bit more ... "

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 01:00 PM :: December 26th, 2004

echo

death by acads.. *gasp*

magjjanuary na.. labasan na ng results ng college entrance exams.

tae. anticipation plus anxiety kills.

sabi nung brother nung friend ko, may iba na late bloomer. ung tipong hindi ineexpect na pumasa.. ung gulat sila "aba! ako pala'y isang matalinong nilalang!"

..... sana late bloomer ako sana late bloomer ako....





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ano ang opposite ng blooming?
(blooming = "uuuuyyy.. blooming siya...")
ano? tuyot?

from the mind of prancingpanda :: 06:24 PM :: December 29th, 2004

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API NEW YEAR!


from the mind of prancingpanda :: 08:52 PM :: December 31st, 2004

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wish wish

-ang unang baboy sa langit na libro
-braces graduation
-a pretty jacket
-nice slippers
-brown and pink wallet from humor post
-digital camera (broke ours kase haha)
-steadler fineliner..lahat ng kulay half of it pero super oks lang. ♥
-Hershey's dark chocolate bar
-mag ice skating sa megamall
-help, in any way, african childrenjoin ONE!
-be kissed by 4,000,000 children ...still counting..�¼
-join a theater org .. TA!! ♥

mababaw na kaligayahan


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