from the mind of prancingpanda :: 09:46 PM :: August 1st, 2004
Entries for August, 2004
something to think about before going to bed
if turtles are
hardworking.. then..
workers are turtles.
true?
false?
certainly true?
certainly false?
hardworking.. then..
workers are turtles.
true?
false?
certainly true?
certainly false?
kastilyong buhangin palaa
i really really feel that im under acheiving. you know that certain feeling that you know you have this great great capability of standing out.. that you have certain talents that can actually take you places? but then, you keep on failing.. just maintaining in the same position you were at two days ago. haay.. hope something will fill this void.
im gonna have a date with judgement on the 8th.. upcat time.. and i think this way!? maaan... im so dead....
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gusto kong lumipad. lumipad kasama ang mga tala. hindi alam kung saan patungo.. hindi malaman kung saan madadala ng mga pangarap. ang alam ko lang ay gusto kong lumipad.. madala ng hangin.. mapalibutan ng mga ulap.. makakita ng humming bird. ..teka, lipilipad ba ng ganoong kataas ang mga ibong yon? hmm..
ngunit paano ko gagawin un? wala naman akong pakpak. duh.
im gonna have a date with judgement on the 8th.. upcat time.. and i think this way!? maaan... im so dead....
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gusto kong lumipad. lumipad kasama ang mga tala. hindi alam kung saan patungo.. hindi malaman kung saan madadala ng mga pangarap. ang alam ko lang ay gusto kong lumipad.. madala ng hangin.. mapalibutan ng mga ulap.. makakita ng humming bird. ..teka, lipilipad ba ng ganoong kataas ang mga ibong yon? hmm..
ngunit paano ko gagawin un? wala naman akong pakpak. duh.
fitness first... nyerk
my body's breaking down.. lately, ive been taking one - two minute naps... during classes!! dang.. its shutting down... i feel my body giving up on me.. my body aches, for some reason, i have sore muscles. thats why almost all the time, i appear wasted. daaaang...
its talking to me..
"tina.. rest.. tina.. bed... tina... eat.. tin...."
SEE?!? kabangagan!!
i need rest.. and i want it.. really really bad. but activities are piling up.. cant move.. cant get my thoughts straight.. arrghhh...
..turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind..
its talking to me..
"tina.. rest.. tina.. bed... tina... eat.. tin...."
SEE?!? kabangagan!!
i need rest.. and i want it.. really really bad. but activities are piling up.. cant move.. cant get my thoughts straight.. arrghhh...
..turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind..
orpheuzzz..
yeah! at last, natapos na ung play namin for orpheus... harharhar!! jap students watched our play! naaahks... steg. one styoodenk even talked to me and said "..you.. nice.." steeeg.ü
nadislocate ata bewang ko.. i was supposed to catch my classmate when she was about to fall but then.. mali ung pagkabato ko ng sarili ko! dang..
pero, the play was great!ü hindi nga lang marunong mag curtain call ung direktor namin.....
nadislocate ata bewang ko.. i was supposed to catch my classmate when she was about to fall but then.. mali ung pagkabato ko ng sarili ko! dang..
pero, the play was great!ü hindi nga lang marunong mag curtain call ung direktor namin.....
let's go raining on the sky
keeping myself altogether isn't easy.
bat ganun? kung kelan nararanasan mo ang tunay na ligaya, bigla ka na lang mapapaisip kun tama ba un o hindi. but if you tend to think that way, are you really feeling true happiness? argh. when will you consider your happiness, genuine? kung ok na lahat? kung walang humahadlang? kung ang buhay ay maging isang bahaghari? paano kung nararamdaman mo nga ang bahaghari habang nandoon ka sa "happiness" mo.. dang.
life is really unfair maaan...
bat ganun? kung kelan nararanasan mo ang tunay na ligaya, bigla ka na lang mapapaisip kun tama ba un o hindi. but if you tend to think that way, are you really feeling true happiness? argh. when will you consider your happiness, genuine? kung ok na lahat? kung walang humahadlang? kung ang buhay ay maging isang bahaghari? paano kung nararamdaman mo nga ang bahaghari habang nandoon ka sa "happiness" mo.. dang.
life is really unfair maaan...
just learning to breathe
i hope i
won't forget
to...
won't forget
to...
shejool
aug 16 - 19 :::::::::::::::::::: quarterly exams.
aug 20 :::::::::::::::::::::::::: no classes
aug 23 - 28 :::::::::::::::::::: retreat - baguio
and im not yet ready for any... well... except for aug 20. harhar.ü
hinga.hinga.hinga.hinga.
ayan, naghyperventilate ako.. kuno. labo. dami kasing gagawin. focha. good luck na lang sakin at sa sangkatauhan.
aug 20 :::::::::::::::::::::::::: no classes
aug 23 - 28 :::::::::::::::::::: retreat - baguio
and im not yet ready for any... well... except for aug 20. harhar.ü
hinga.hinga.hinga.hinga.
ayan, naghyperventilate ako.. kuno. labo. dami kasing gagawin. focha. good luck na lang sakin at sa sangkatauhan.
no time
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vlank.
clank.
crank.
sank.
...walang kwentang physics! kanina, naisip ko, sana nabuhay nalang ako sa 1800s.. para konti lang ung topics na pagaaralan ko. tas hindi pa kilala si dalton.. wala pang papel si einstein sa mundo. kulay brown pa ang mundo!!!!!
..pero naisip ko, kung mangyari man un.. wala pa masyadong nangyayari sa buhay ko. wala pang komfuter. wala pang kotse. wala pang telebisyon. at hala!!!!!!! wala pang RADYO!!!!!!! ayoko.. dito na ko sa siglo ko...
vlank.
clank.
crank.
sank.
...walang kwentang physics! kanina, naisip ko, sana nabuhay nalang ako sa 1800s.. para konti lang ung topics na pagaaralan ko. tas hindi pa kilala si dalton.. wala pang papel si einstein sa mundo. kulay brown pa ang mundo!!!!!
..pero naisip ko, kung mangyari man un.. wala pa masyadong nangyayari sa buhay ko. wala pang komfuter. wala pang kotse. wala pang telebisyon. at hala!!!!!!! wala pang RADYO!!!!!!! ayoko.. dito na ko sa siglo ko...
see the skies open and the soil crack
notice: tina will be out for the whole of next week.
will have a retreat in baguio! woohoo! whole week.. malayo sa pamilya.. malayo sa compyuter at telepono. malayo sa mahal ko. lalapit naman sa Diyos.
i am not a hypocrite to say that im a very religious person. but i do love God. He has touched my life in so many ways. cliche as it may seem, i rediscovered Him again and again. dati nga, nagsisimba ako sa Japan, bigla nalang akong umiyak. tears from a heart that was longing for strength. tears from the eyes of a repentant sinner.
i know how to serve in the mass kase.. ung mga sakristan. ganun. yep, pwede ang babae. and everytime i would actually serve, i feel my heart melt just with the sight of the people gathered in the mass. in serving, i continually witness people's devotion and willingness to forget differences. and it gives a feeling of fulfillment... since i would be one of the selected few who would actualy see that. galeng. but i repeat, i am not that religious. i dont claim that i am. hindi rin ako masyadong mabait. sa totoo lang, ako'y isang malaking makasalanan. but hey, i just like the feeling of happiness. (who doesn't?) at pinupunan ng Diyos ang aking puso ng ligaya.. hindi man lagi.. o hindi ko man nakikita lagi.. but whenever i do feel His presence, o hold on to that moment since that is when i realize my worth as a person.
hope that i will feel Him during my one week stay in baguio.
"...you are more beautiful when you awake than most are in their lifetime"
will have a retreat in baguio! woohoo! whole week.. malayo sa pamilya.. malayo sa compyuter at telepono. malayo sa mahal ko. lalapit naman sa Diyos.
i am not a hypocrite to say that im a very religious person. but i do love God. He has touched my life in so many ways. cliche as it may seem, i rediscovered Him again and again. dati nga, nagsisimba ako sa Japan, bigla nalang akong umiyak. tears from a heart that was longing for strength. tears from the eyes of a repentant sinner.
i know how to serve in the mass kase.. ung mga sakristan. ganun. yep, pwede ang babae. and everytime i would actually serve, i feel my heart melt just with the sight of the people gathered in the mass. in serving, i continually witness people's devotion and willingness to forget differences. and it gives a feeling of fulfillment... since i would be one of the selected few who would actualy see that. galeng. but i repeat, i am not that religious. i dont claim that i am. hindi rin ako masyadong mabait. sa totoo lang, ako'y isang malaking makasalanan. but hey, i just like the feeling of happiness. (who doesn't?) at pinupunan ng Diyos ang aking puso ng ligaya.. hindi man lagi.. o hindi ko man nakikita lagi.. but whenever i do feel His presence, o hold on to that moment since that is when i realize my worth as a person.
hope that i will feel Him during my one week stay in baguio.
"...you are more beautiful when you awake than most are in their lifetime"
ima ima
ima going to baguio. ima gonna be gone for a week. ima gonna miss kandule. ima take a lot of feectyures. ima miss my kandule. ima read palancas. ima miss my kandule. ima see pine trees and igorots. ima..
abangan ang aking pagbabalik. zhezheng!!!!
abangan ang aking pagbabalik. zhezheng!!!!
kleeshey as they call it.
yeeeaaah!
ima backa! haha!
dang... saya.. lameg... pumunta ba naman sa baguio habang bagyo?!?! twerrng. pero oks lang. daming fugs. walang makita sa labas dahil sa fugs. aliw na aliw kami dahil sa fugs. fugs fugs fugs.
mga nangyare.
*ang tawag sakin nung paring nag handle samin ay 'sexy tina'. yes. hindi siya masyadong kaaya-ayang pakinggan.
*sa banyo, may kyuubikel na ang dingding niya ay may bintanang walang ... binatana. (?!) (open lang siya, walang "door".. grills lang.) kung saan nakikita mo ang pagpasok ng fugs sa loob ng banyo. doon ako nagbihis.
*mahilig ang mga madre sa mais. puro mais ang pagkain doon.
*habang lahat kami'y nakatago sa dilim dahil sa surprise program sa aming pari, may umutot.
*ordinaryo nang makarinig ka ng "shet, samahan mo ko, tae lang ako.." o "taena, jebs ako." o "hoooy!! sino jumebs dito?""ako"
*talagang tumatagos ang lamig sa kumot. wala kase dun kandule ko.
*may narealize kami doon:
diba ang shepherds, tinetend ang sheep? eh bat hindi nalang sila tinawag na sheepherds o ang sheep, shep?
hmm..
aside from that we had so many realizations.. and rediscovered so many things in life..
*you have to have enough confidence within yourself and be proud of it. coz that's the only time others will really apprectiate you back and love you even more.
*there is something about watching people being proud of their culture. being able to encounter people who belong to the cultural minority group is one great realization in itself. we think they are one of the poorest sectors in the country. we think, they are underpriviledged and malnourished and the like. but no. they are the exact opposite. they are even richer considering that they have their rich heritage that they shamelessly live by and share. we, on the otherhand, see ourselves as those who are more fortunate and wealthy. but then, with what i've experienced, we turned out to be otherwise because of our views and judgement.
*God saves us over and over again. He soothes our souls day after day without us noticing it.
*don't eat too much. it will cause frequent trips to the washroom.
ima backa! haha!
dang... saya.. lameg... pumunta ba naman sa baguio habang bagyo?!?! twerrng. pero oks lang. daming fugs. walang makita sa labas dahil sa fugs. aliw na aliw kami dahil sa fugs. fugs fugs fugs.
mga nangyare.
*ang tawag sakin nung paring nag handle samin ay 'sexy tina'. yes. hindi siya masyadong kaaya-ayang pakinggan.
*sa banyo, may kyuubikel na ang dingding niya ay may bintanang walang ... binatana. (?!) (open lang siya, walang "door".. grills lang.) kung saan nakikita mo ang pagpasok ng fugs sa loob ng banyo. doon ako nagbihis.
*mahilig ang mga madre sa mais. puro mais ang pagkain doon.
*habang lahat kami'y nakatago sa dilim dahil sa surprise program sa aming pari, may umutot.
*ordinaryo nang makarinig ka ng "shet, samahan mo ko, tae lang ako.." o "taena, jebs ako." o "hoooy!! sino jumebs dito?""ako"
*talagang tumatagos ang lamig sa kumot. wala kase dun kandule ko.
*may narealize kami doon:
diba ang shepherds, tinetend ang sheep? eh bat hindi nalang sila tinawag na sheepherds o ang sheep, shep?
hmm..
aside from that we had so many realizations.. and rediscovered so many things in life..
*you have to have enough confidence within yourself and be proud of it. coz that's the only time others will really apprectiate you back and love you even more.
*there is something about watching people being proud of their culture. being able to encounter people who belong to the cultural minority group is one great realization in itself. we think they are one of the poorest sectors in the country. we think, they are underpriviledged and malnourished and the like. but no. they are the exact opposite. they are even richer considering that they have their rich heritage that they shamelessly live by and share. we, on the otherhand, see ourselves as those who are more fortunate and wealthy. but then, with what i've experienced, we turned out to be otherwise because of our views and judgement.
*God saves us over and over again. He soothes our souls day after day without us noticing it.
*don't eat too much. it will cause frequent trips to the washroom.
wish wish
- mababaw na kaligayahan
ang unang baboy sa langit na libro
-braces graduation
-a pretty jacket
-nice slippers
-brown and pink wallet from humor post
-digital camera (broke ours kase haha)
-steadler fineliner..lahat ng kulay half
of it pero super oks lang. ♥
-Hershey's dark chocolate bar
-mag ice skating sa megamall
-help, in any way, african childrenjoin ONE!
-be kissed by 4,000,000 children ...still counting..�¼
-join a theater org .. TA!! ♥
Please do visit
you need not have money.. just the willingness to help and make a change. baw.
im still missing
bffyf